hey im not gonna be here anymore, im not gonna delete my blog but this is a goodbye from me… i love all my mutuals and im really thankful for all the friends i made here, i really love u all so much and i hope everyone has a good life…. farewell my angels <3

i love him so much, he was such a beautiful soul and this is so hard for me, cant believe i had to write “was”….. im gonna miss him every single day of my life but im grateful for all he was done for us :((((( he helped me so many times, when i wa sad, when i was anxious, when i couldnt take the bus bc of my anxiety i would always listen to his voice and he would help me get through it…. this is really a sad day and i cant believe this is happening,,, im so sorry everyone :(((

kunstpause:

Jonghyun was one of the most thoughtful artists I’ve ever followed. His support for the lgbt community and his advocacy for mental health has been a beacon of hope in an industry that denies both. I can’t even put in words how much he will be missed and how much this hurts.

cheolshu:

Thank you for being an inspiration to many people. May you rest in peace and be in a better place. We’ll surely miss you. Goodbye, Kim Jonghyun.

phreakish:

to everyone startled by the news of jonghyun

please remember jonghyun for what he is and not for what he did.

please remember him for the laughter and the smiles he brought forth.

please remember him for his musicality and his persistent hard work.

and please, please remember that he wouldn’t have wanted the same fate on you.

seulpeo:

• standing up for lgbt students and minorities at large by amplifying their voices, but doing so respectfully (dec 2013)
  
• reflecting on his appreciation for hero movies… ‘i have to protect my world’ (mar 2013)
• receiving boxes of listerine after a joke comparing his deja-boo suit colors to listerine flavors went viral, during base promotions (feb 2015)
• comforting a fan who was self-conscious about her name with a handwritten note at a shinee fansign (may 2015)
• going to comfort a crying key during shinee’s concert at tokyo dome, but ending up crying himself (early 2015)
• speaking playfully with a male listener on blue night radio (may 2015)
• mentioning his gratitude for fans and listeners in creating a safe space with blue night radio (july 2015)
• discussing his conversation with taemin about “gender roles, prejudices and negative views about artists, etc.” when writing pretty boy for taemin ft. kai on blue night radio  (aug 2015)
• personally supporting radio guest baek young ok on blue night radio in her efforts to bring sanitary pads to low-income girls (mar 2017)

there are so many more moments to include but i wanted to hold onto these for sure. jonghyun, you were a celebrity like no other. i cant imagine a world without you. i wish you’d gotten to known how many hearts and minds you touched with your voice, your songwriting, and just by being yourself.

i know i wasnt here much bbc i was studying but i wanna die… omg im so sad rn i cant stop crying, this is so sad omg i…. i cant believe this. im so torn apart